“Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness: according unto the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions. Wash me thoroughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin.” (Psalm 51:1-2)
This powerful chapter in the book of Psalms is King David’s transparent confession. There is much in the chapter on which to meditate and you would do well to study it completely. However, there are times when we must move way beyond a thirst for understanding a passage and move toward a life-altering experience. Sometimes, all it takes is one verse or two to capture us and navigate us to repentance. David paid a high price for his sin with Bathsheba and subsequent judgement, but the result of his brokenness has left us with this beautiful song from one who decided to come clean.
Repentance is a personal thing which must be experienced, and if experienced can consequently be shared with others. We can study the path toward repentance and break it down into its parts, but the truth we often avoid is repenting ourselves. Studying repentance is not the same thing as truly repenting. Observing what others have done in their personal walk with the Lord is not on the same level as our own engagement with a contrite spirit personally. So, where are you today? Studying for more knowledge or studying for the knowledge of the Holy One to break you, reveal your sin to you, and lead you into honest confession and deliverance?
Today is the only one you are promised and tomorrow is nothing more than a dream in its making. Between today and tomorrow, there is no better place to land …in honest, open brokenness before the King of Kings. Take the time to act upon what you have read. Give a wide path in your heart and life to the nudge of the Holy Spirit.
If, indeed, sin is brought before you, stay long enough with Him to fully acknowledge it, and completely repent. Now is the time to come clean and begin again. Don’t try to begin again before coming clean. Acting like nothing is wrong and trying to serve your way out of sin’s clutches will not take you anywhere but to despair and burnout. Once you are up to date with confession and repentance, you will be ready to serve freely and be used greatly.